Your Whole Life Has Been Leading Up To This......

06:27 pm - JRB Fans

Someone to Fall Back On- Jason Robert Brown = Best fuckin song ever.

Get it bitches.

09:37 am - 2 Years

I can't believe it's been two years already.....

I' can't believe I still love him so much......

I can't believe how lucky I am......

I love this feeling.

Be still- My Haunted Heart.

I love you Justin.

Current Mood: peaceful

08:03 am - Comment Stats

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Alrighty then. That was so not worth it.

12:19 pm - Oh FREDDY....GIVE IT TO ME

Mr. Phelps was in Boston today.

"Fags themselves best know an describe their condition, and it is not a pretty sight. Example: 'two "gay" public relations specialists, Hunter Madsen and Marshall Kirk, co-authored the book "After the Ball: How America Will Conquer Its Fear and Hatred of Gays." Therein we learn that what fags cringe for us to know. Stuff kids are taught where Rainbow Fag Flags fly- as we hard of John Glenn Middle School. Fags eat each other's feces ("scat") lick each other's anus ("rimming"), urinate on each other and drink each other's semen (calling such drinkers DRACULA). Fags are pathological liars and con men who end to reject all forms of morality. Fags are narcissists, irreversibly self-absorbed, with zero concern for others- which explains why fags with AIDS intentionally spread AIDS freely, via unprotected sex."

WELL THEN! I'd like to thank Mr. Phelps for that ever so detailed lesson on gay life! I had NO IDEA that I loved to eat shit and drink piss!! I'll have to GIVE THAT A TRY. I'd also like to thank him for pointing out that I have no morals. This explains why I get a severe burning sensation in my chest when I go to church on Sundays..... I will also now insert a "Fag" in between Rainbow Flags everytime I mention it. Can you imagine me bobbing my head from side to side saying "Rainbow Fag Flag?" The alliteration is PRICELESS. The passage also explains my strange attraction to Brad Pitt in Interview with a Vampire. Apparently swallowing is a bad thing.....I just thought I was being polite.

Thanks for the lesson Fred. I appreciate it.

Current Mood: annoyed

01:20 pm - Summer

So, I'm REALLY hoping this summer will have more happiness in store for me, as opposed to last summer....which I thoughtfully refer to as the summer that reeked of anchovie cunt. ANYHOW, I had the best year ever.

Living with Justin and Heather rocks. I wouldn't choose any other roomies to share my college years with (unless it was Katie, Katy, Jeff or a few other people......in which case I would STILL want Justin and Heather here.) I've had so much fun, I can't even explain it.

I also acquired some kick ass friends from school, the most important being this beautiful individual: ( Jakcie! )

I love you Jackie! You are the best, and I'm so excited that we have our awesome friendship. We're gonna have some kick ass time these next few years. I hope you're excited!! It's gonna be a crazy ride girl. You best get your ass up here this summer and visit me or I'm gonna be PIIIIISED! You're beautiful love.

So I'm turning 21 in 6 days (May 12) This is weird. And for the first time, I feel weird about my birthday.....I mean I feel.....old(er). I don't know quite how to describe this yet aside from saying that I feel an abundant pressure to grow up. I will deny this feeling at all costs....because I've seen some very good people become very bad people after they decided it was time for them to "grow up." No thank you. My motto is and will continue to be "The key to staying young is to stay immature."

On the flipside, I'm crazily excited for my birthday, because Justin is taking me to the ( Aladdin )in Las Vegas, and I am SUPER excited. May 12th thru the 13th. If you wanna come, COME! It'll be a blast.

Yeah, I feel weird. I feel old. I'm starting to ask myself those very hard questions.....like what I'm gonna do after college....oh sweet lord that's scary. I don't wanna be in my mid-twenties and still be dependent on my parents. Fuck, I don't wanna be 23 and still dependent on my parents.....I won't be. That's for sure.

Was this entry as random as it felt? Oh well.

Current Mood: amused

06:13 pm - MySpace

Hey,

If you have MySpace, add me: www.myspace.com/scratchdavid

Thanks!!

12:02 pm - Happy 21st Birthday Justin!

Today, my boyfriend of 1 year 9 months is 21.....

I love you Justin, you have changed my life for the better, and are the most beautiful person I know.

My heart is yours, as it will always be.

Happy birthday to the most beautiful boy I know.

(No LJcuts on my boyfriend's bday)

Current Mood: chipper

03:52 pm - What the Hell.

I had a really vivid dream last night about Justin Hansen.

I was singing at a huge cathedral, and had just finished practicing, went out the door, and almost got hit by a blue truck. When I looked in, I saw his face. I was paralyzed with fear.

When he stepped out of his truck, He recognized me. He smiled, and at that point, I felt relieved. I ran to him, and put my arms around his neck. He swung me around, something that, in real life, would never happen, since he had always been a few inches shorter than me.

We walked into the Cathredral, and he sat next to me, holding my hand, until I got up to go sing. When I was done, he looked at me, kissed me, and then I woke up.

It's been almost 4 years since I've seen Justin Hansen. I have no idea what he looks like, sounds like, or feels like. But it was just so.....real. I used to have a re-occuring dream about him, but I haven't had that for a long time now. I woke up in tears, and looked at my current Justin, and wondered:

Would I leave him if I had another chance with Justin #1?

Sometimes I wish the answer wasn't what it is.

Fuck you Justin Hansen.....I wish you would just get out of my head....once and for all.

01:02 pm - For My Girls

This is for all of my favorite girls out there.....

http://www.ryanmcfaul.com/mirror/assets/GB_imaximum.mov

Go Fag Hags.

12:41 pm

For the next 7 days I will be essentially unreachable aside from a few folks whom I have talked to who are going through some rough times.

I will be at DisneyWorld with Justin on vacation!! I hope that everyone has a great great week, and I will call everyone when I get back! You can call and leave messages on my cell phone if you need me, but I will not be carrying it with me, nor will it be on....not that I don't love you! lol.

Have a great week, and good luck to those who have midterms.

02:56 pm - Constantly Connected

So I've been thinking lately....it's a dangerous thing I know:

We live in this really strange time....it's a time where we are all constantly connected to one another. Is this a good thing? I don't know, I'm still trying to decide.

I have Facebook, MySpace, Livejournal, AIM, Yahoo, AOL, Google, a cell phone, and a house phone. Whenever someone wants to get ahold of me, they can. 10 years ago, this would have hardly been an option. I got my first cell phone when I was 16, and from there, I went to the internet etc....

I used to move a lot, and when I did, I usually lost touch with those that I left....that doesn't happen anymore. It's not a bad thing, it's just so different.

I've been contemplating deleting all my LJ's, MySpaces, and Facebooks, and getting rid of my cell phone. I would just have my house phone and EMail....good or bad?

I was watching the news, and they had a special on Cell Phones....everyone has them now, and it's sickening to me. Kids in Elementary school have them IN SCHOOL. They were talking about banning them, and the arguments coming from parents was that their kids needed to have them for emergencies. That school's argument was that if it was a true emergency, the parents could call the school office, and get in touch with their child. I agree with the school....I don't think that a 10 year old needs a cell phone for emergencies.

We've become such a connected society. When I get on a train, half of the people are on their phone's because they've created hubs in the underground transportation system. It's really annoying when the person sitting next to you is blabbing about their most recent night out. It used to be that when you got the train, you could either talk to the person next to you, or act oblivious, and ignore them. In a way, technology has allowed us to become more antisocial, and in some ways, it's the opposite. I spend a lot of the day on the computer, reading about people's lives whom I both know, and don't know. I don't have to go to the library to get a book anymore. I don't have to go to Virgin to get an album anymore. If I wanted to, I could stay inside all day, and still be perfectly connected to the outside world.....I choose not to (stay inside), but some choose to do just that. Is it healthy? I have no idea....there are arguments both ways.

I have called friends to ask about there lives and they have said "Well haven't you been reading my LJ?" Insanity.

So many things can be misconstrued and altered when they're not spoken, and it can be so dangerous.

And yet here I am, writing on LJ, seeing what other people think.....how else would I have this option?

What do you think? Is this all a good thing or a bad thing? Would you call someone to ask about their life if they didn't have an LJ? Is it purely convenience that drives us to use Online forums? Or is there something more sinister about all of this?

Tell me.

11:49 am - A Tribute to the Goop on her 21st Birthday

This is a tribute to Goop. Happy 21st birthday my lovely roomie!! I love you!

( A Little Story about a Girl named Goop )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GOOPY HOOP!!

*disclaimer- all events are fiction, although It would be really funny if they weren't.*

01:33 pm

Have you ever had one of those weeks when you just feel absolutely CRAZY? Yeah....I'm havng one of those. I've just been sitting....and I absolutely hate that. Nothing is "wrong" perse, it's just one of those awful feelings you get when you think the world is crashing down around you, and you don't even notice.

Is my world crashing down? No.....at least I don't think so.

I've been writing some music lately....it's just kind of been coming out. I don't know.....this is probably one of those stupid self-revelation periods in life....God I hate those. I always feel nuts when this happens.....and I wonder what people think of me....because it just seems like I stare, and am never aware of anything that's going on. The real problem is that I'm SO aware of everything, that my head just can't it.

Whatever....it'll be over soon.

01:33 pm - VDay

So sometimes, when I'm sitting at my computer listening to a good Joni Mitchell song, or a song like Phil Vassar's "Dancin' with Dreams," I start to think about my friends.

Not my college friends....you know, the kind that know "you," and your name, but will never really know you for who you are or where you came from.

I'm talking about friends that know YOU. You can't fake it around them. You can't put up the rough exterior that is so common now. Not around these people.

These are the people who love you for your imperfections....not because of the way you look, or grades that you get, or how drunk you can get on Saturday night.

These are the kind of people I long to find again in life, not as replacements, but as reminders.

These are the people that you have probably laughed with, cried with, cried on, cried at, seen at there best, and most likely at their worst; the kind that you have hugged, kissed, said hello to, and most likely

said goodbye to.

These are the people that came into your life for a moment, a day, or a year, but have the staying power of a lifetime.

These are the people you swear you will call, but don't; not because you don't love them, but because your life has become consumed with new and exciting things...but they'll be there when you really need them.....

These are people who have gone away to college, determined to change, but submissive to the fact that no one ever really changes, not to those who love you the most.

These are the people that come home, and hug you, and it's only then that you really realize what a friends touch can do.....

These are the people who you won't see tomorrow, or the next day, but will always be visible in your mind and by your side with every step you take.

These are the people you miss, but not too much, because the pain would be too much to bare.

These are the people who you've put before yourself, because you believe in them.

These are the people you love, and who love you....no matter what you try to convince yourself of.

These are the people who can look back and say "I remember when."

These are the people who can heal you with a smile, or break your heart with a frown.

You've hated these people, loved them, despised them, but in the end....they are who they are, and always will be.

So....I've compiled a PARTIAL list or people who I wanted to say thank you to.....

Thank you for being my friend. If we're not as close anymore....well, it's not because I don't love you, or never did. You are all constantly in my thoughts....and I thank you for putting up with me, and being my constant guides, and mentors.

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Thank you so much....Happy Valentine's Day my friends.

Love,
David

11:20 am - This was cute

LJ Friends Meme by coolerq

10:10 pm - Oh Bushy

Ah.....the man who says that I can't get married.....

Current Mood: amused

03:19 pm - So here's the thing....

My winter break just went from being awesome to fully SUCKING ASS.

Allow me to bitch, just for a moment. Here's the thing:
I'm supposed to go see my borther's and sister in CT this weekend right? And I asked my parents about this a week ago right? Right. So I'm talking about it with my Mom today, and she says, "You're going for the whole weekend? I thought you were just going on Saturday!" What! Yes, that's right. I'm gonna drive three hours, spend two there, and then drive right back. a 6:2 ratio? I think not.

She's being ridiculous. There is this ridiculous war between my Dad's kids, him, and my Mom. And frankly, after being pulled, stetched, and strung out for 20 years, I'm tired of it....they ALL even have the audacity to say that I am in no way in the middle of it. Well fuck you Mrs. Robinson, because I am. So now I'm up the fuckin creek. If I go, I'll piss my parents off. If I don't, I piss my siblings off, and either way IM PISSED OFF.

Alright. On to bitching item number two.

Justin. I love my boyfriend...... but there are those days.....on man are there those days....when I could rip his balls off and bury them in the snow. I understand that sometimes there are days when he's not around much....I get it, and I've moved on. But when I call, at least have the common fuckin courtesy to be nice to me damnit, and then when I call him out on it, what does he do? Does he say, "Sorry babe, I know I was an ass." NO. HE CONTINUES TO PISS ME OFF. And today was not the day to do it.

I love my Mom. I love my siblings, and I love my boyfriend, but what the hell...wha wha what the fuck.

Aight. I'm done. I guess.

10:11 pm - hehe

This was perfect

05:32 pm - This was actually a fun quiz! Nice job paulie.

I'm kinda....Emo lookin.....

11:45 am - This is from My friend Katie's away message:

I want to go back to the time when decisions were made by going "eeny-meeny-miney-mo;" mistakes were corrected by exclaiming, "Do over!"  When catching fireflies could happily occupy an entire evening; the worst thing you could catch from the opposite sex was cooties.  When scrapes and bruises were kissed and made better, and it was magic when dad would "remove his thumb".  When "oly-oly-oxen free" made perfect sense; when spinning around, getting dizzy and falling down was cause for giggles.  When ice cream was considered a basic food group and taking drugs meant orange-flavored chewable aspirin....

people say college is the best time in one's life. I disagree.